Something Lost

I’ve lost something but I don’t know where

I’ve lost the bright shining smile the morning sun brings forth

The guiding light of the moon late at night

I’ve lost faith in tomorrow for it just doesn’t come

and don’t think of yesterday or I’ll sit and cry

I’ve lost love and care and still don’t know where

I just don’t know that it’s all sitting somewhere

my hopes and my dreams, desires and despairs

my reasons for living and breathing the air

I’ve lost all these feelings and know that they’re sitting

in the bottom of the lost and found box in a place called...lost life

A Dream

I dreamt of this man called my lover my friend

The man that I thought would stay thru lifes end

I had thought we’d hold hands while taking long leisurely walks

or perhaps hang on each others words everytime we talked

I had fantasized we’d make love gently as we slowly became one

I dreamt of strolls in the park

and stolen moments in the dark

I pictured images of poetry in words featuring you and me

I thought we’d become we but it was always just you and I

I fantasized of a man you see who was caring and sweet and knew me,

he was understanding

we’d fall in love and be complete

In dreams this man gave a damn of the fantasies within my mind

and I dreamt that together we’d be one of a kind

I dreamt of building a home

no longer alone, being romantic we’d always be together

I conjured up images of two people laughing endlessly happy

I dreamt of sharing tears the world couldn’t see

and we’d never let spill unless with each other

I dreamt all these things with that man who was supposed to be you

But the dream and this memory wasn’t of you

for my mind played a trick and left me confused

my heart broke in two for I woke up alone

I dreamt of this man called my lover and friend

But that couldn’t be you for we’ve reached the end...

Endless Sleep

What do you do when you lose all faith

When you look to tomorrow and can’t see your dreams

When you wake up in the morning you can’t even breathe

When your past looks better than your future seems

When your friends invite you out for a drink, a pill and your bed seem better than that

When your family becomes your worst nightmare, whatever they say, you just run away

When the time on your clock doesn’t seem to move forward, you must laugh out loud its all a bad joke

When your laughter of joy turn to tears of pain, the trauma inside finally escaped

What do you do when you’ve lost this much faith

When hope no longer exists within

I don’t have an answer so I’m asking you

For now I’ll embrace this sweet endless sleep

No pain and no trauma, no feeling tomorrow

Lost in Time

So in this life I walk backwards

I walk to a happier time

somewhere unbeknownst to all

but in my heart still alive

somewhere where memories thrive

where laughter and joy makes me cry

I hear little chattering voices and know

this is where I belong

why must this clock turn forward

why can’t it just drop me off

keep ticking backward I say

erase all these tears from my eyes

make my heart full again

make this nightmare disappear

go away I yell

stop time before it happens again

drop me off in the memory of my heart

the happy place

where voices were still part of my life

where all my memories are still alive

where that little voice still whispers

“I love you daddy, I wish you were here”

It’s that time of year again

the ghosts are a booing

the witches are brewing

the mommies are excited

the kids are awaiting the Halloween fright

ghouls are found hanging from trees all around

tombstones stand guard on front yards everywhere

candles are burning and pumpkins alive

tis’ a full moon tonight monsters coming to life

there is fright everywhere all in the air

spiders are crawling

making hairs stand on end

goosebumps arise on my skin from eerie sights

haunted houses screech sounds coming from where?

Black cats are a hissing, gonna cross your path

candy sits piled in baskets by the door

children eagerly await knocking

waiting hungrily just to say

Happy Halloween and TRICK or TREAT!

Have You Ever

Have you ever had someone in your life you’d die for

forever trying to make him keep smiling

Have you ever spent hours on the telephone

the endless conversation, dreading the dial tone

Have you breathed him in the morning when he wakes up

his scent your day's inspiration from the start

Have you pictured his dreams in your evening sleep

You hope this means he’s the one you’ll keep

Have you spent sleepless nights due to yesterdays' fights

When he arrives you lose your fright

Have you turned around and both fallen to the ground

You're happy, ecstatic your love knows no bounds

Have you had your day started in bad moods for hands you have parted

When he returns your heart goes pitter-patter

Have you sped away for he screwed up your day

By midday he calls to say I’m sorry

Have you made love insanely after a bad fight

Apologize he does through the rest of the night

Have you cried just to hold him but never told him

You weep as he turns and you've finally showed him

Have your friends wished this relationship they had

You can only wish that they will, for them you feel sad

Were you able to keep this love so deep

Without losing your life or the ground underneath

If all of these you have experienced then in love you have been

And if this love you kept I salute you my friend

Yesteryears

Still the yesteryears remain in my heart

as if time stood still I can breath the air

we are children again giggling with joy

up and down the street we haven’t a care

its barely dusk and not a threat in sight

the street light aglow on the corner as we run back and forth

we play peek a boo just one more time

hoping our parents don’t remember

school tomorrow time to jump in the tub

the many sleepovers

little whispers in the dark

sleeping bags in the living room

time slowly slips by

tag your it and we scatter like bugs

swimming in the pool

splashes of carefree delights

the childhood memories we share

going to school

riding the merry-go-round in the mall

dance lessons together

hiding shoes in the sand

ice creams in p.j.s

growing up down the street

looking at our faces

as together we stand

the tickles of yesteryears memories come flooding back