Something Lost

I’ve lost something but I don’t know where

I’ve lost the bright shining smile the morning sun brings forth

The guiding light of the moon late at night

I’ve lost faith in tomorrow for it just doesn’t come

and don’t think of yesterday or I’ll sit and cry

I’ve lost love and care and still don’t know where

I just don’t know that it’s all sitting somewhere

my hopes and my dreams, desires and despairs

my reasons for living and breathing the air

I’ve lost all these feelings and know that they’re sitting

in the bottom of the lost and found box in a place called...lost life

A Dream

I dreamt of this man called my lover my friend

The man that I thought would stay thru lifes end

I had thought we’d hold hands while taking long leisurely walks

or perhaps hang on each others words everytime we talked

I had fantasized we’d make love gently as we slowly became one

I dreamt of strolls in the park

and stolen moments in the dark

I pictured images of poetry in words featuring you and me

I thought we’d become we but it was always just you and I

I fantasized of a man you see who was caring and sweet and knew me,

he was understanding

we’d fall in love and be complete

In dreams this man gave a damn of the fantasies within my mind

and I dreamt that together we’d be one of a kind

I dreamt of building a home

no longer alone, being romantic we’d always be together

I conjured up images of two people laughing endlessly happy

I dreamt of sharing tears the world couldn’t see

and we’d never let spill unless with each other

I dreamt all these things with that man who was supposed to be you

But the dream and this memory wasn’t of you

for my mind played a trick and left me confused

my heart broke in two for I woke up alone

I dreamt of this man called my lover and friend

But that couldn’t be you for we’ve reached the end...

Endless Sleep

What do you do when you lose all faith

When you look to tomorrow and can’t see your dreams

When you wake up in the morning you can’t even breathe

When your past looks better than your future seems

When your friends invite you out for a drink, a pill and your bed seem better than that

When your family becomes your worst nightmare, whatever they say, you just run away

When the time on your clock doesn’t seem to move forward, you must laugh out loud its all a bad joke

When your laughter of joy turn to tears of pain, the trauma inside finally escaped

What do you do when you’ve lost this much faith

When hope no longer exists within

I don’t have an answer so I’m asking you

For now I’ll embrace this sweet endless sleep

No pain and no trauma, no feeling tomorrow